If you shed tears when you miss the Sun,you also miss the stars

One of my colleague travels much, she goes to every place that would interest her. What an admiring life. I planned to go to the picturesque Lijiang, where life is simple and equable, or invite granny to Hangzhou, the eternal celestial city in her world, and also have a good feeling of the metropolis.

Regretfully, I have none of them come true. I am fret of the crowd and finding hotel in the strange city by myself, but will be more pissed off by a traveling group. Granny refused, she joked that she’ll go unless picked up by my future sedan. I believe somewhat she meant that, at least she’s quite busy with the sea food deal, she don’t want to miss any little chance left for her age. Right, it is not suitable to shift buses in the whole way, even granny agreed to come, where shall I accommodate her? Hotel, guest house or squeeze with me in the same bed? Sounds ridiculous, I should have cozy separate room for granny, but I can afford none.When will I have my legs on the wheels, and have spare rooms? Hopefully, I can have one of them after two years’ effort before my 28^th birthday.

Still have a headache now, though office hour was several hours ago. Same as usual, it was another hectic day for me. I have to handle mails, prepare documents for customs declaration, no professional paperwork system, make inquiries, give offers, place orders, push factories to have urgent delivery, get all artworks confirmed and printed, and also coordinate production in our own packing factory, cost and profit evaluation of every shipment, collect invoices. I have to control every little move of the biz, otherwise constant problems will occur. Hell, so much responsibilities I have to take then ever, I have to run in the office, speak louder and fast, barely remember to have a glass of water, no wonder I fell stressed, and my head was dizzy on the way back.

Is this the life I expected? I quit two jobs because of excessive free working time and dullness, then I found the present one. Satisfied sometimes when some kinda hard job is done or get quite a good margin for the company, but most of the time, just dealing with routine and annoying unexpectancies. Life is what? Admiring the others'? Just like people in and out of wall.

Learn to be gratefull. If life throws you a lemon, make lemonade.

Now I am soully independent, becoming confident, and get the feeling that I am important, which I can see from my siblings and parents, from my manager, I am scared of nothing in mind. The best is I know kongfu so that I won't be worried about my safety even I am travelling alone in some distant town or strolling in the plain or desert.

Back from a nightmare, and as the pain of MC won't go, I was awake to find the first beam of sunlight shining from the window.

The dream said that I was quite scorn at a man's behavior, but he resorted to force being extremely annoyed. And I was just the victim, my scream stroke me back to reality.

Are dreams really those we thought in the day?

I remembered two dream clearly, the first one is I fell from a skyscraper, many times, and the other one is also very torturous, saying that the bus stop is high on a cliff, and I have to catch the bus in very limited time. But the bus stop is not any nearer even though I run as fast as my legs could carry, my luggage is so heavy, sometimes I can't even move a step however hard I try to run. And similar odd situation in dream came not only once. Are those indicating something?

English rust already, but am trying to write it forever.

Don't know how to start, as I am lost at sea all this times. But I don't like this kind of situation anymore, I'd like to fix a bit of what I am doing and thinking.

First about love, it is almost two years since I am called cotton girl, but in the recent few months, or from one year ago, our relationship is not like that harmonious. In one word as I can  conclude, I am too weak, and he's too strong, sometimes even like a tyranny to me.

Hardly can I recall all that happened in these two years, but few things impressed me a lot

We hanged out late Sunday and he's attached by a couple of drinker on his way back to the school dorm. Considering that I may be worried about him, he tried not to tell me anything about that. I was so distraught the next morning when he called to tell the truth, that I'd like to be him to get the punch instead. The first time I felt that I am so cared about him, the world fades without him.

And I need him so much when I fell down from the bike and broke two teeth, like my need for my mom when in desperate. He's the only one that I will act like a spoiled child in front of him so far. Alone in the dorm for nearly one week, the only thing I did was to pray for his coming and tender hugs. Quite indulged in his warm cares.

What others, tears I think, I begged for his forgiveness in the playground, in the lawn, in his lab, on the phone, quite a lot, but I felt tiredness, don't know from when.

Want to be together when both of us are available, we go sightseeing even in my period, just don't want to destroy the golden day. But I am so suffered with walks, sorry this affected your mood all the more.

Admiring the happiness of living together so much that i muttered in your back on the bike, and tell you that I don't like to live with colleages, but you were annoyed, thinking that i was complaining about your alibility. Sorry I should think more before I speak.

The battery is still good last night, but you said we should charge in all circumstances, then you flew in a fuse and rudely broke the new umbrella. You walked away by yourself. I only have to seek little happiness by shopping alone. In the last, I brought you back with fresh and sweet fruits, and also two books saying how to become a charming lady. Sorry, I should know more about the unexpectancy in life.

Also in my period, and submerged in the work, I forgot to bring back my cell phone in the office. I guessed he may be anxious to have my reply after several short message, I decided to go to his dorm directly, as normally dorm is his best choice ever. But to my disappointness, nobody's there. Since I am exhausted, I have the plug of water heater on, and begin to leave words to him on line. Later suddenly I heard the door oped, I was so released in the bathroom. But he disappeared shortly, no matter how hard I tried to yell him back. Depressed, tired and hungry though, I find him in his lab. Wishing he would settled it all right and came to embrace me, but he didn't. He slapped me in the face and pushed me over on the floor when I dragged him and screamed for an explanation of the whole stuff happened there. Sorry, I should give you more space and try to be in your shoes as always as possible.

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For more than one month, I am accompanied by the beautiful of westlake, and it sure will last for at least three years.

I only have to wait for the company to pick me up at 8:30, and I am having 30 minutes to enjoy the hug of nature beauty, really have to count myself lucky, compared with other 9-5 Joe.

Frankly, I am hectic every day, but, I am happy with what all is happening.

Life is so beautiful, especially in the season when the air is permeated with the pleasant scent of osmanthus!

Nothing is more cozy than enjoying the bright full moon in the sweet breeze, and strolling in the su causeway hand in hand with anata. How I wish time would stop there.

It is closer day by day to the national day, and we will be in Xi'an for a nice banquet of ancient culture and savory snack. I am loving it. And life should be like this:

Work like you don't need the money.
Love like you've never been hurt.
Dance like nobody's watching.
Sing like nobody's listening.
Live like its Heaven on Earth.

 

Same usual hot summer, but not for me, I had an 18-year-old sister.

It was a quiet evening in the dorm, and father called.

"What?...another sister..." I was quite surprised and curious.

"Yes, we abandoned her days after she's born..." I can feel sadness and bitterness there.

From that night on, I learned once more the hardness of life.

Fortunately, this younger sister is having a very caring and wealthy family, but maybe their love is too much, which probably result in the caprice character of child.

Hopefully, you are normal studying at school.