Still have a headache now, though office hour was several hours ago. Same as usual, it was another hectic day for me. I have to handle mails, prepare documents for customs declaration, no professional paperwork system, make inquiries, give offers, place orders, push factories to have urgent delivery, get all artworks confirmed and printed, and also coordinate production in our own packing factory, cost and profit evaluation of every shipment, collect invoices. I have to control every little move of the biz, otherwise constant problems will occur. Hell, so much responsibilities I have to take then ever, I have to run in the office, speak louder and fast, barely remember to have a glass of water, no wonder I fell stressed, and my head was dizzy on the way back.

Is this the life I expected? I quit two jobs because of excessive free working time and dullness, then I found the present one. Satisfied sometimes when some kinda hard job is done or get quite a good margin for the company, but most of the time, just dealing with routine and annoying unexpectancies. Life is what? Admiring the others'? Just like people in and out of wall.

Learn to be gratefull. If life throws you a lemon, make lemonade.

Now I am soully independent, becoming confident, and get the feeling that I am important, which I can see from my siblings and parents, from my manager, I am scared of nothing in mind. The best is I know kongfu so that I won't be worried about my safety even I am travelling alone in some distant town or strolling in the plain or desert.