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August 10 Cotton Girl Ever?English rust already, but am trying to write it forever.
Don't know how to start, as I am lost at sea all this times. But I don't like this kind of situation anymore, I'd like to fix a bit of what I am doing and thinking.
First about love, it is almost two years since I am called cotton girl, but in the recent few months, or from one year ago, our relationship is not like that harmonious. In one word as I can conclude, I am too weak, and he's too strong, sometimes even like a tyranny to me.
Hardly can I recall all that happened in these two years, but few things impressed me a lot
We hanged out late Sunday and he's attached by a couple of drinker on his way back to the school dorm. Considering that I may be worried about him, he tried not to tell me anything about that. I was so distraught the next morning when he called to tell the truth, that I'd like to be him to get the punch instead. The first time I felt that I am so cared about him, the world fades without him.
And I need him so much when I fell down from the bike and broke two teeth, like my need for my mom when in desperate. He's the only one that I will act like a spoiled child in front of him so far. Alone in the dorm for nearly one week, the only thing I did was to pray for his coming and tender hugs. Quite indulged in his warm cares.
What others, tears I think, I begged for his forgiveness in the playground, in the lawn, in his lab, on the phone, quite a lot, but I felt tiredness, don't know from when.
Want to be together when both of us are available, we go sightseeing even in my period, just don't want to destroy the golden day. But I am so suffered with walks, sorry this affected your mood all the more.
Admiring the happiness of living together so much that i muttered in your back on the bike, and tell you that I don't like to live with colleages, but you were annoyed, thinking that i was complaining about your alibility. Sorry I should think more before I speak.
The battery is still good last night, but you said we should charge in all circumstances, then you flew in a fuse and rudely broke the new umbrella. You walked away by yourself. I only have to seek little happiness by shopping alone. In the last, I brought you back with fresh and sweet fruits, and also two books saying how to become a charming lady. Sorry, I should know more about the unexpectancy in life.
Also in my period, and submerged in the work, I forgot to bring back my cell phone in the office. I guessed he may be anxious to have my reply after several short message, I decided to go to his dorm directly, as normally dorm is his best choice ever. But to my disappointness, nobody's there. Since I am exhausted, I have the plug of water heater on, and begin to leave words to him on line. Later suddenly I heard the door oped, I was so released in the bathroom. But he disappeared shortly, no matter how hard I tried to yell him back. Depressed, tired and hungry though, I find him in his lab. Wishing he would settled it all right and came to embrace me, but he didn't. He slapped me in the face and pushed me over on the floor when I dragged him and screamed for an explanation of the whole stuff happened there. Sorry, I should give you more space and try to be in your shoes as always as possible.
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